I need to seriously work on myself. I write this here on my blog because I don't have anywhere else to put it or express this. it's just not an easy life. This is ALL NEW TO ME. I'm gonna start a plan. or if not I have the tools. and that isn't something I wanna resort to. not here. this is a new beginning for me meaning that I don't wanna bring my past into this new chapter of my life. Alllll newwwww.